My Babies (Aka dogs). 

Have you ever had one of those days when you look at something, and realise ‘Holy shit I don’t know what I’m doing’. Well today has definitely been one of those days for me.

It hasn’t been a bad day, nor a horrific day. I was just in university. It was a module I don’t mind to attend as the subject of fiction applies to me. It is something I would like to work on in the future. The tutor was going through an assessment a previous student had written (this student passed so it’s fine). Have any of you in education experienced a moment when you look at something a teacher tells you not to do, and you know for a fact you do that very thing? Well, that epiphany hit me. Hard.

Academically, I am not poor but I’m not fantastic. I am average. Which is fine, I don’t fancy myself a scholarly genius by any stretch of the imagination. It was just a little disheartening that I enjoy writing, and yet I don’t appear to do well on my course. Or sorry, not as well as I think I probably should be doing.

So, I was feeling a little down. It isn’t because I’m not learning, or picking up the information. I’m just not good at displaying it in an exam, or assignment. Give me a piece to write creatively, and I think it might show that I have been listening. However, as education stands they require these moments of analytical practice with quotes, and exams that require immense amount of hours stressing over will I remember this. Trust me when I say we aren’t learning anything from this. As soon as whatever deadline or exam is over we all literally sit there and say ‘thank fuck we never have to do that again’. The brain filters out all the bits of extra information we needed for that one moment then deletes. I have to put this information into practice in order to make it valuable to me. Then my brain won’t just throw it away.

University doesn’t do that, and I was starting to feel a little bit like I’m not supposed to be on this course. What the fuck am I going to do…?

Then I got home.

I have already posted a picture of Bandit and Luna on a previous post. So I won’t go into too much detail about which is which. But I got home, and they were there waiting to greet me with their happy waggy tails. I went into the freezer and got them a healthy treat for them. Luna ate hers straight away no problem. Bandit sat on the couch not really doing anything with his. So I went and stroked him, he started licking his treat which slid off the couch. I caught it in my hand, and he ate it from my hand. 

To fully understand what this means to me a little back story is needed. Bandit was considered food aggressive. He is the softest when taking treats, is moody but loves cuddles, and is falling apart a little bit (that’s a totally different story). I tried everything every behaviourist recommends, from taking food away halfway through eating, to standing over the bowl, to physically holding the bowl… It didn’t work. Then one day I just decided ‘here food, eat it, don’t eat it, I’ll just leave you to it’. It worked, he doesn’t give me that weird look whenever I’m near him and food is around. He does growl when I want to stroke him and his food is around. And just today he ate from my hand very comfortably. It just made my day.

To add to this luna. 

Is starting to look really, really good. She has lost that initial bulkiness that she had from being overweight. Her body is starting to slim down to a healthier size. I just needed that little sign that I’m not always failing. 

The two of them made my day. I feel a lot better about everything. So I’m not doing great on my assessments, my creative work gets high marks and that’s what matters to me. Bandit and luna are doing really well, and my fitness part of my life is going great. Plus just as an added extra bonus, I have a beautiful man in my life who is more than supportive, which I know a lot of people don’t have. So, I’m not feeling as low as I did before, all because my babies have shown me I’m not a total screw up.

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Juiceplus+ week one – detox

This is the first week completed. I feel quite good if I’m honest. I’m not as tired as I used to be, which is a nice improvement. Somethings have been a little different for me, I’ve been peeing ALOT. I have also been really hungry on top of that. 

Now this is strange for me because usually I never get hungry. When I was skipping meals I used to think I was fine because I wasn’t hungry. I know that is wrong, come on I was in denial, don’t say you’ve never had that moment of denial. Honesty is the best policy. 

Since this juiceplus+ it has activated my appetite at healthy times, so now I’m having two meals a day plus a shake, and healthy snacks. Which is great, on other days when I’m particularly busier than others I’ll have two shakes and a meal with snacks. This is progress.

I’ve also been more willing to try new and different things. My favourite meal of the week, curry coriander rice noodles with brocoli, cauliflower, and mushrooms with quorn. I’m not a vegan by any stretch but quorn is a healthy source of protein. And it doesn’t taste as awful as some people make out, actually it is quite nice without the risk of those grizzly bits you get in chicken that snap in your mouth. (Aaah ew! I hate those…).

I need to work on drinking more water, I have been drinking roughly just under 2L of water a day, and since I exercise I should be drinking more. So my aim this week is to keep up with what I’m doing but bump up the water levels. 

Obviously I am not going off weight or any form of measurement to make any educated assumptions on progress physically other than on how I feel, however I have noticed some clothes gaining space so I’ll take that as a sign. 

One thing I am going to do now is bump up my exercise. With me starting a new diet I knew energy levels were going to spike, and drop throughout the week. However, now my body should be finding its feet I am going to add more exercises to my routine.

In the morning (even though it is getting rather frosty, and slippy) I will take my two beautiful babies, Bandit, and Luna. Two siberian huskies.

Bandit. 

Luna. 

Luna is over weight, Bandit might start getting there. To help this weight loss program for them, running of a morning is going to be a thing. A regular thing. 3K to start off with.

ONE of the new shakes that I tried this week –

250ml unsweetened almond milk

1 full scoop of vanilla juiceplus+ powder

1 tsp of cocoa powder

1 tsp of spirulina powder

Mix it together with a good shake!

And it goes a funky green colour. To know how green the first picture on this post is the shake I was talking about. Don’t let the colour put you off, it was really nice! And so good for you! 

Start of something new (for me) 

I haven’t posted in a long time, and it isn’t because I’m giving up with anything. I have just been very busy with my last year of university, and my extra curricular activities that every chance I get to chill, I do nothing.

I am however, going to try to keep on top of everything from now on. Especially since Christmas is coming… (Shit, I’m not even close to prepared)… Which means I’ll have time away from university, and other things.

What prompted this post?

I recently decided I would be seriously intrigued to try being healthier. I was thinking about this for a while, but I never really went for it because I was busy to a point I would skip meals through out the day. Then eat ONE massive meal at the end of the day. Maybe, sometimes I’d just buy a chocolate bar, and be so tired that I wouldn’t bother doing anything else.

What changed?

Well recently I discovered a friend of mine in my pole sessions, who also goes on dog group walks that I also attend, is a part of this journey called juiceplus+. She explained how it works, and what it actually involves. I tried a trial of it about a week ago, and came to the conclusion that this journey would be good for someone like myself. I eat nothing good for me, and skip meals. Things were starting to slip out of my energy range (this included). It was time to try something new, and seriously give it a go. No more “I’ll try it tomorrow”s I had to give this proper chance.

I understand what some of you might be thinking. Replacing meals with milkshakes is probably not the best idea. Yes, well… I was replacing meals with nothing originally. So, it couldn’t possibly be worse than what I was doing. Second, according to the research into juiceplus+ these aren’t designed just for weightloss, they are designed for a healthier lifestyle.

I have started on the vegetable, and fruit capsules which contain so many veg and fruit I couldn’t possibly eat them normally in a day anyway. Plus, this is a good way for me to make sure that I am getting the vitamins, and minerals that I need in my body.

I also got the milkshakes as they are very nice, plus I skip meals, this is a way for me to get something down me so my body isn’t starving.

This is just one way to do this juiceplus+. You don’t have to follow mine to the letter, but it might be a good idea for anyone who, like myself skips meals on a regular basis.

I started mine last night. I haven’t measured myself, or anything like that. Instead I’m going to take note of how I feel in my day to day life. How I feel within myself is far more important than my weight. Though I’ll say, I am feeling very good this morning, and I’ll make a weekly update on it. Plus I’ll add a new recipe I have tried, and found delicious every week.

So, first –

1 scoop vanilla powder juiceplus+

1 banana

250ml of almond unsweetened milk.
Is absolutely fabulous.

Xperia 2.5

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Her body plummeted to the floor, her eyes shut for impact. When the pain, and snap of bone didn’t come she felt a cold shiver wrap around her body. Then the floor under her back. Arellia opened her eyes, looked about her, and noticed that she was no longer within Alasdair’s vicinity.

How had that girl known who she was? Or better question why did they hate her for it? Then another came to mind… Why were they here?

They didn’t send children out here, they sent adults, criminals. To fight an ongoing raging war. Well… There was no war, there was only that thing.

So many riddles in her head, they rattled around. They made her emotionally conflicted, but also distrustful… With brows furrowed, she look to the sun which now bowed into its decent. Arellia followed the sun into the forest.

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To be continued… 

Xperia 2.4

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“We’re not all children…” Alasdair sounded pout, it put a small smile on Arellia’s face. “Some of us are older than we look”. He rushed toward a small boy that had waved to him. It left her to think about her next move. When a small girl squealed from behind her. Her tiny dirty finger was pointed stoic still at Arellia. Every eye pinned towards her. Some confused, others surprised, but not as curious.

“It’s fine Kimi! She’s not an intruder…” Alasdair came running. The girl screamed again. Her glare unflinching as she stared Arellia down. The girl was thin, where baby fat should coat a layer under her skin was bone, and scars. Her eyes were a deep brown, and they were imprisoning Arellia. Alasdair turned her body to him, but her eyes remained in the conflict. “I brought her here, would you look at me?”. A whimper bubbled from her throat. “Look at me, please”. She snapped, screamed in his face, and pointed at the backwall beside the tree ladder entrance.

That was when Arellia noticed the depiction carved into it. Her heart sank, her blood froze in her veins. The whole world fell away at that moment. It was the royal emblem. Her emblem. Scratched out. Viciously. Then the world returned with the heavy weight of malice burning in her direction. Alasdair looked to the wall, then stood up. His back was to her, but even still she could hear the ticking in his brain, the click at what Kimi meant, and the roll of shoulders back in decision.

“Are you…?” Before he could finish his question. Arellia ran, she didn’t bother turning to climb down the ladder. She jumped. “Wait!” She heard Alasdair call. It was too late. Her body was plummeting down.

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To be continued… 

Xperia 2.3

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When she reached the top there was a whole village of people living up in the trees. They were mostly children, with a few teens wondering around doing little jobs.

“What is this?” Arellia couldn’t believe her eyes. The structure was designed as a huge bungalow styled tree house. It was supported by at least ten trees. It was all made from wood. “How did you do this?”.

“What?” Alasdair asked as he clambered up after her. “This?” He gestured to the wooden structure with one finger circling in the air. “We found out a material in the dirt when in contact with air solidifies like concrete” he started, he tapped his foot to show her that it was solid underneath. “But once wet returns to its sticky liquid ways… Is that right liquid? It basically softens. So we had to find a way to keep it dry, which is why you couldn’t see it, the ivy plants we wrapped around it absorbs the moisture in the air” he smiled. He was clearly proud of there work. She couldn’t blame them, they were children how’d they survive?

“Are you all children?” She twirled around, and noticed a large population of children with a older teen looking boy teaching them to read, and write.

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To be continued…

Xperia 2.2

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“Let go of me!” Arellia snapped, she scratched at his hand but he still didn’t release her. He walked with her dragged at his heels for a couple of minutes. He moved smoothly between the trees even though the leaves of the trees above blocked out all the light. Another screech sounded closer now. No human cry followed just a crunch, and splash mingled together. She didn’t dare imagine what that meant.

“OK, climb the tree” he stopped beside a large thick trunk. It had ridges cut out of it in equal gaps clearly designed to be something of a ladder.

“No” she stomped her foot. Arellia wanted to go home, and go home she will.

“If you don’t you’ll die, is that what you want?” he said it passively as if death didn’t matter. It shocked her to not hear the typical viper tone designed to make you feel small. “Climb up, and tomorrow I’ll take you home deal?” he held out his hand. She looked down at it his hands were scarred with calluses, and nails chipped black. It was damaged but she found it a pleasant sight. She took the hand shaking it weakly before letting go. The heat from his hand was too comforting to be normal.

At first it was awkward to climb, she didn’t want to ruin her nails like he had, but in the end she forgot all about them. She concentrated on the burn in her thighs, and biceps. Her forearms cramped, and carves stiffened.

“Is there a house up here?” she panted.

“Sort of, you’ll see it soon enough” His reply was unbroken. He wasn’t even straining to get up here. How long had he been out here? He didn’t look that much older than herself.

“Can I ask your name?” she asked. She heard a slight chuckle which was close to a low rumble. She wanted to hear it again.

“You can ask anything you want” Arellia could hear the smile. She rolled her eyes, and clicked her tongue to her teeth to tut.

“What is your name?” She asked.

“Alasdair” his reply cut off.

“Alasdair?”.

“Just Alasdair”.

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To be continued…